One Step At A Time..

I grew up learning that

No matter how hard you fall flat

You got to stand still

Continue with stronger will

As every moment passes by

Adds new lessons sometimes wild

So I never gave up on hope

I smiled in order to cope

 

I wished to just flow

And spread smiles with some hope

No wonder how you broke

hid the pieces with the cloak

To hold the world around

‘Coz that’s when you confound

There’s a child inside

Who doesn’t want to die

Unknown to the knowns

like the locker of the Davy Jones

 

One day life will be pride

Listening to this inner voice

And the dreams it once shared

Fictional, but back then i didn’t care

The dream of living love

Diving high as two doves

Holding hands with flying wings

Resting and fighting beings

Creating new lives

Binging to play kites

 

Growing old with pitfalls

Yet rising above towards the stars

Building home, our little spot

Within the woods at hill-top

Grazing the little calves

And playing with our dogs

Teaching a bunch of kids

Of the near village called mids

Watching the dusk and dawn

Dancing and singing loud

 

But darling what I have been

Grown up dreaming

Has caused me a big fall

And i don’t see how to let go this long haul

The wounds are deep and scars

Are open to dust and flaws

So I try to spread smiles

With a little hope to hung by

To the people close to me

I came back smarter they believe

 

To stay alert I don’t calm

At the face of truth I am alarmed

The dream has turned its back

And has been the trojan attack

I don’t see the sunrise

Just left with emotions deep inside

I try to quiet them

Kill or silent them

And be less than a human

To protect self from demon

Mind open but heart closed

Words playing but feelings shorn

 

But,

I grew up learning that

No matter how hard you fall flat

You got to stand still

Continue with stronger will

As every moment passes by

Adds new lessons sometimes wild

But I don’t know if it’s the time

To give up hope and let feelings die

So I smile for another mile..

Take one step at a time and one step at a time yet another at a time..

 

 

 

 

 

RAAHEIN..

Raahein..inki bhi alag hi daastan hai..

kahan se janmi, kahan ko hai jaatin

ye khud mein bekhabar par..raahi, raahii ko uske mukaam tak le hi jaatin…

Raahein kuch kehti nhi bus sunti hai

Raahi ki raah takte takte aahein bharti hai

Zindagi toh yun hi ek badhti, badalti, sambhlti, muskurati khamoshi si raah hai..

Na jaane kiske kadamo ne inse kuch kha hai

Aur na jaane kitno ne inhe samjha hai

Par ye muskuraati khamoshi si raah anginat lamhon ko yaadon mein samet..ek nayi dastaan banati hai..

Maano jaise jannat ka darakht prakashit hua ho khin se…

Maano jaise jannat ka darakht prakashit hua ho khin se…

 

Be a little more..

Distance has never been this quiet before,

now I withdraw from my thoughts more.

I heard my thoughts soothing, calming and doting,

Yet screaming, deafening and defeating.

 

Distance has never been this empty before,

now I withdraw from my feelings more.

I still feel the cold, warmth, soft and loft,

Yet fierce, violent and uncontrolled.

 

So distance, distance has never been this clear before,

now I withdraw from my learned behaviours more.

I don’t search, doubt or engrave my identity,

I live free, more and unobstinate to the maturity.

 

Distance has never been this vulnerable yet comforting before…

Now I withdraw from my fears, insecurity, and ordeals just to be a little more, just to be a little more.

 

 

 

Do Pal..mil leti hun

Dhalte din mein, aur badhti shaam mein,

roz thoda chalti hun, do pal.. khud se mil leti hun.

Bhari bheed mein, aur goonjti ekaant mein,

roz thoda samajhti hun, do pal.. khud se mil leti hun.

Kahaaniyon mein, aur logon ke shabdon mein,

roz ek bahaana dhundti hun, do pal.. khud se mil leti hun.

Sapno mein, aur sabki sachhaiyon mein,

roz bhraman karti hun, do pal.. khud se mil leti hun.

Subah ki namaaz mein, aur baba ki aawaaz mein,

roz aman karti hun, do pal.. khud se mil leti hun.

KITAAB

Ek dukaan, dukaan kitaab ki.

Kitaabein kayi, kuch kahaaniyon ki.

Kahaaniyan ankhahee, kisi ke khwaab ki.

Ek khwaab, yaad kisi ki.

Kisi ki chaahat, ladaai kisi ki.

Aazaadi kisi ki, maut kisi ki.

Shanti kisi ki, sachayi kisi ki.

Ek dukaan, dukaan kitaab ki.

Kshetr ek, Lekhak kayi.

Syaahee ek, pal the kayi.

Lafz unke, aawaaz thi meri.

Anubhav unka, pariksha thi meri.

Chaai saath mein, kuch biscuit bhi.

Raatein kayi, par saath nhi.

Vichaar kayi, dhaarna kayi.

Ek kitaab, kitaab uss dukaan ki…

 

 

 

 

MIT-TE SHABD

Shabdon ke jaal mein khud ko hai baandha

Anjaane mein dheeme dheeme khud ko khud se hai khoya

 

vishwaas, saath, pyaar or bharosa

Kabhi khud ko lapata toh kabhi khud mein kisi aur ko hai paya

 

Ansuni aawaaz cheekh rhi hai

Mere hi shabd ab mujhe bezubaan kar rhe hai

 

Dabi hui si khwaahish aaj marr rhi hai

Khud ki paribhaasha bhi ab mitt rhi hai…

 

 

 

 

 

The Expression of Openness and Void. (#Not a poetry)

How it feels to breath with openness

In mind, in heart, in soul..

Where the wonders and miracles meet me

And disasters and vulnerabilities are immense in cues

What shall I tell in words or how shall I express without them..

As an artist with the love of expression

Or as a writer by putting forward the best possible appropriate combinations of letters..

With openness comes choices, comes chances

With openness comes freedom,

But freedom always has its opportunity cost.

So does this cost be the breath I intake, or the breath I exhale..

What lies or what I hold after paying the cost by my breath

Is it the freedom again or emptiness as void inside, as void inside….?

Is it just the expression of openness and void or a question to self on my life or for my life ..??

 

 

 

 

The Magical Cave

“With a bunch of friends I joined one of the martial art camps, which were organised on a monthly basis, under the guidance of the renowned Shaolin warier monk. This time it was held on one of the islands of Maldives. The mythological story of the island goes with the rumours of a magical cave where the Goddess resides.

Fortunately, our guide informed that it is not just a rumour, instead the cave is truly magical and legendary in its own ways. We accepted our present opportunity and decided to visit that cave. The cave was considered to be a holy place, and is opened with the help of a Mantra. Entering into it, we found the blessed stone through which the Goddess arrives, and takes away the spirit of that human who devotes its soul to the Goddess.

Hearing this story changed something in me. Something I was unaware of. But since we came back from the cave, I had an unusual feeling about myself. While preparing ourselves for getting started with the training part, I just wanted to flow in the moment and be with just my self. I closed my eyes, with motion i meditated and it took a form of dance which I lived as of those moments.

After I opened my eyes, I saw one of my friends in tears. She had the realisation of her deepest truth, from which she was escaping so far. And this was a hint for me, this was time to be the eye witness of that power which is bigger than all. I mentioned to my another friend to inform my family members and my partner about how much I love them and left.

I walked back into that magical cave & this time it opened without any Mantra. As if, I was supposed to be there in that moment.

I entered the cave, walked through and found the stone of Goddess. While closing my eyes I wished to be taken away, I prayed with all my devotion to leave my body and just be the spirit in my truest form. The stone of Goddess shined bright and brighter, I was witnessing the power I have never met before. And with steps I walked in to that light….I walked into that light…. “

BE

Be the ray of hope you were seeking for,

Be the faith you were searching for,

Be the light you were looking for,

Be the flower you were nurturing for,

Be the love you were looking for,

Be the feeling you were desiring for,

Be the hope you were holding on,

Be the essence you were caring for…

 

 

 

Towards My Shadow

Back then was a time,

I was surrounded with guise.

When torn, ripped and drown,

The upheaval you gave was a sanctum to mourn.

 

Cuddled by you ,

I was like a child in womb.

With the light reflected upon,

You opened up and I was pulled by dawn.

 

We stretched but were not apart,

Intact we remained and drawn by nature’s art.

Bigger the sun became, longer you stood,

As sun disappeared, we still withstood.

 

Now is a time, years have passed,

Walking in the tunnel and  you were mopped.

Search for you, is nullifying me,

dropping my blood yet my soul hides in me.

 

Afraid i am as heart beat slows down,

inflamed I am and taking your name loud,

running through this dark cave, distant apart,

Am I seeing you or just a light wave on the path??

 

Gradually sinking to my core,

my mind opens and heart sees more.

The light became larger than I thought,

It folded me in arms to deliver, as if I was brought.

 

Succumbed I was, before opening my eyes,

I see the whole picture without any disguise.

You were the shadow, the sanctum I lived in so long,

You protected me and I remained fond.

 

You were the shadow of light,

With progress you changed dark to ignite.

A part of you was I,

And later I understand how you become white.

 

We are the two polarities that drive,

different energies yet combined.

None of us is complete without one,

Shadows merge with light and spread as love.