The Escapist

The escapist wonders in the land of mountains

Sheds a few memories and make bridges with the updates

Treks over the rocks, struggles and exhausts

Slips over, gets breathless and feels lost

Its soul floats on the river surface

and every truth reappears from the vase

Gorging like a baby for the warmth it prays

Astounded by the fall it disappears in search of new ways

The escapist wonders in the land of the mountains

To be someone new it replaces the memories with the updates..

 

 

One Step At A Time..

I grew up learning that

No matter how hard you fall flat

You got to stand still

Continue with stronger will

As every moment passes by

Adds new lessons sometimes wild

So I never gave up on hope

I smiled in order to cope

 

I wished to just flow

And spread smiles with some hope

No wonder how you broke

hid the pieces with the cloak

To hold the world around

‘Coz that’s when you confound

There’s a child inside

Who doesn’t want to die

Unknown to the knowns

like the locker of the Davy Jones

 

One day life will be pride

Listening to this inner voice

And the dreams it once shared

Fictional, but back then i didn’t care

The dream of living love

Diving high as two doves

Holding hands with flying wings

Resting and fighting beings

Creating new lives

Binging to play kites

 

Growing old with pitfalls

Yet rising above towards the stars

Building home, our little spot

Within the woods at hill-top

Grazing the little calves

And playing with our dogs

Teaching a bunch of kids

Of the near village called mids

Watching the dusk and dawn

Dancing and singing loud

 

But darling what I have been

Grown up dreaming

Has caused me a big fall

And i don’t see how to let go this long haul

The wounds are deep and scars

Are open to dust and flaws

So I try to spread smiles

With a little hope to hung by

To the people close to me

I came back smarter they believe

 

To stay alert I don’t calm

At the face of truth I am alarmed

The dream has turned its back

And has been the trojan attack

I don’t see the sunrise

Just left with emotions deep inside

I try to quiet them

Kill or silent them

And be less than a human

To protect self from demon

Mind open but heart closed

Words playing but feelings shorn

 

But,

I grew up learning that

No matter how hard you fall flat

You got to stand still

Continue with stronger will

As every moment passes by

Adds new lessons sometimes wild

But I don’t know if it’s the time

To give up hope and let feelings die

So I smile for another mile..

Take one step at a time and one step at a time yet another at a time..

 

 

 

 

 

RAAHEIN..

Raahein..inki bhi alag hi daastan hai..

kahan se janmi, kahan ko hai jaatin

ye khud mein bekhabar par..raahi, raahii ko uske mukaam tak le hi jaatin…

Raahein kuch kehti nhi bus sunti hai

Raahi ki raah takte takte aahein bharti hai

Zindagi toh yun hi ek badhti, badalti, sambhlti, muskurati khamoshi si raah hai..

Na jaane kiske kadamo ne inse kuch kha hai

Aur na jaane kitno ne inhe samjha hai

Par ye muskuraati khamoshi si raah anginat lamhon ko yaadon mein samet..ek nayi dastaan banati hai..

Maano jaise jannat ka darakht prakashit hua ho khin se…

Maano jaise jannat ka darakht prakashit hua ho khin se…

 

Be a little more..

Distance has never been this quiet before,

now I withdraw from my thoughts more.

I heard my thoughts soothing, calming and doting,

Yet screaming, deafening and defeating.

 

Distance has never been this empty before,

now I withdraw from my feelings more.

I still feel the cold, warmth, soft and loft,

Yet fierce, violent and uncontrolled.

 

So distance, distance has never been this clear before,

now I withdraw from my learned behaviours more.

I don’t search, doubt or engrave my identity,

I live free, more and unobstinate to the maturity.

 

Distance has never been this vulnerable yet comforting before…

Now I withdraw from my fears, insecurity, and ordeals just to be a little more, just to be a little more.

 

 

 

Mannat Sa..

Tu ghabraye kyu, jab kal tune na dekha.

Tu ladkhdaye kyu, jab raasta yahi  hai tera.

Tu khud mein khud ko roke kyu, agar hai tujhe jeena.

Tu utsukta ko baandhe kyu, agar gyaan hai tujhe peena.

Tu mann ki ankhein khole, jab ho sab dhuaa dhuaa.

Tu dil ke raaste khole, jab ho tu dara dara.

Tu chup hai kyu, agar sunn rha apni cheekh ko.

Tu bhram nhi, aaj maan le apne astitva ko.

Kyu mitt rha tera vishwas hai, jab kho ke paana hi teri muraad hai.

Kyu soche ki tu aaj hai khali sa, tu jaanta nhi ye tere jazbaat hai.

Tu samet le ya jee le, yhin tera chayan hai.

Tu maang le ya de le, yhin tera karm hai.

Ho ja tu malang sa, agar ibaadat ho karni.

Ho ja tu shunya sa, jo apni pehchaan ho karni.

Tu ho ja mandir, masjid aur dua.

Tu ho masoom aur jee le mirza.

Taare se janma prakash hai tu, tu ho ja aaj dhyaan zara.

Marhum sa narm hai tu, kisi ke dard par aaj thehar ja..

Tu ho ja prem sa, parbat ko chhu aur srishti sa ban ja.

Tu armaan ban aur kisi ki mannat sa udta chla ja, udta chla ja..

 

 

Ardh Satya

Jharne mein behte hue shor boond boond ka,

Aur Behti hui nadi mein achanak se aana kisi mod ka.

Halki si baarish mein garajna zor se baadal ka,

Aur andheri raat mein bujhna aakhri mombatti ka.

Bin bulayi barsaat se tootna ghar kisi ka,

Aur bina wajah bataye ruthna zindagi ka.

Aakhri chaai ki chuski mein milna mishri ka,

Aur ghanto intzaar ke baad chhutna gaadi ka.

Khwahishon se bhare bheed mein akele reh jaane ka,

Aur akele mein bhi apno ka sukoon paa jaane ka.

Aadhi raat mein kisi dhamaake se uthne ka,

Aur nayi subah mein nayi shuruwat ke hone ka.

Chehkti muskaan mein badhte vishwas ka,        

Bachhe ki kilkari mein khilane wale ki naadani ka.

Ehsaas hain sab kisi mein kuch zada ya kuch kam,         

Hastakshep soch hai sab kisi ka armaan kisi ka mat.

Kamal ke kichad mein khilne jaisa kisi ka jhooth kisi ka sach,                          

Aur grahan mein kisi ke milne ya kisi ki doori jaisa hai ye saara ardh satya ardh satya.

Zindagi…

Zindagi ho jaise udte baadalon si
Saath ho jaise chaav thandi si
Ghar ho jaise hariyali ped ki
Rishtey ho jaise ye prithvi hum sab ki

Gyaan ho jaise sooraj ki kiran pehli
Dhyaan ho jaise samarpit sadhana ki
Aayu ho jaise sugandh kaamyabi ki
Shrey ho jaise bhakti prem ki

Zindagi ho jaise udte badalon si….

KITAAB

Ek dukaan, dukaan kitaab ki.

Kitaabein kayi, kuch kahaaniyon ki.

Kahaaniyan ankhahee, kisi ke khwaab ki.

Ek khwaab, yaad kisi ki.

Kisi ki chaahat, ladaai kisi ki.

Aazaadi kisi ki, maut kisi ki.

Shanti kisi ki, sachayi kisi ki.

Ek dukaan, dukaan kitaab ki.

Kshetr ek, Lekhak kayi.

Syaahee ek, pal the kayi.

Lafz unke, aawaaz thi meri.

Anubhav unka, pariksha thi meri.

Chaai saath mein, kuch biscuit bhi.

Raatein kayi, par saath nhi.

Vichaar kayi, dhaarna kayi.

Ek kitaab, kitaab uss dukaan ki…

 

 

 

 

CHAAHAT

 

Jab jaan-naa chaha,

tab haalaat nhi the.

 

Jab maan-na chaaha,

tab jazbaat nhi the.

 

Jab chaaha ki lafzon mein krein kuch banyaa

tab, sach kehti hun, shabd hi nhi the.

 

Jab dhuud-na chaaha,

tab jawaab kayi the.

 

Jab apnana chaaha,

tab sawaal kayi thi.

 

Jab chaaha ki aankhein mund kar sun lun dil ki baat

tab, sach kehti hun, dil mein koi ehsaas hi nhi the.

 

Jab samajhna chaaha,

tab pehlu kayi the.

 

Jab smajhaana chaaha,

tab tum hi nhi the.

 

Jab chaaha ki khud mein khud se hi mil lun

tab, sach kehti hun, Allah bhi yhin the aur Ishwar bhi yhin the….

 

Jab milin unse,

tab puchha maine,

 

jaana khn tha,

aur khn hain chal diye.

 

Jab suna unhone meri chaahat ko

tab vo bole, main sach kehta hun, aana tha yhin pe…..tumhe, aana tha yhin pe.

The Expression of Openness and Void. (#Not a poetry)

How it feels to breath with openness

In mind, in heart, in soul..

Where the wonders and miracles meet me

And disasters and vulnerabilities are immense in cues

What shall I tell in words or how shall I express without them..

As an artist with the love of expression

Or as a writer by putting forward the best possible appropriate combinations of letters..

With openness comes choices, comes chances

With openness comes freedom,

But freedom always has its opportunity cost.

So does this cost be the breath I intake, or the breath I exhale..

What lies or what I hold after paying the cost by my breath

Is it the freedom again or emptiness as void inside, as void inside….?

Is it just the expression of openness and void or a question to self on my life or for my life ..??