The Escapist

The escapist wonders in the land of mountains

Sheds a few memories and make bridges with the updates

Treks over the rocks, struggles and exhausts

Slips over, gets breathless and feels lost

Its soul floats on the river surface

and every truth reappears from the vase

Gorging like a baby for the warmth it prays

Astounded by the fall it disappears in search of new ways

The escapist wonders in the land of the mountains

To be someone new it replaces the memories with the updates..

 

 

One Step At A Time..

I grew up learning that

No matter how hard you fall flat

You got to stand still

Continue with stronger will

As every moment passes by

Adds new lessons sometimes wild

So I never gave up on hope

I smiled in order to cope

 

I wished to just flow

And spread smiles with some hope

No wonder how you broke

hid the pieces with the cloak

To hold the world around

‘Coz that’s when you confound

There’s a child inside

Who doesn’t want to die

Unknown to the knowns

like the locker of the Davy Jones

 

One day life will be pride

Listening to this inner voice

And the dreams it once shared

Fictional, but back then i didn’t care

The dream of living love

Diving high as two doves

Holding hands with flying wings

Resting and fighting beings

Creating new lives

Binging to play kites

 

Growing old with pitfalls

Yet rising above towards the stars

Building home, our little spot

Within the woods at hill-top

Grazing the little calves

And playing with our dogs

Teaching a bunch of kids

Of the near village called mids

Watching the dusk and dawn

Dancing and singing loud

 

But darling what I have been

Grown up dreaming

Has caused me a big fall

And i don’t see how to let go this long haul

The wounds are deep and scars

Are open to dust and flaws

So I try to spread smiles

With a little hope to hung by

To the people close to me

I came back smarter they believe

 

To stay alert I don’t calm

At the face of truth I am alarmed

The dream has turned its back

And has been the trojan attack

I don’t see the sunrise

Just left with emotions deep inside

I try to quiet them

Kill or silent them

And be less than a human

To protect self from demon

Mind open but heart closed

Words playing but feelings shorn

 

But,

I grew up learning that

No matter how hard you fall flat

You got to stand still

Continue with stronger will

As every moment passes by

Adds new lessons sometimes wild

But I don’t know if it’s the time

To give up hope and let feelings die

So I smile for another mile..

Take one step at a time and one step at a time yet another at a time..

 

 

 

 

 

Be a little more..

Distance has never been this quiet before,

now I withdraw from my thoughts more.

I heard my thoughts soothing, calming and doting,

Yet screaming, deafening and defeating.

 

Distance has never been this empty before,

now I withdraw from my feelings more.

I still feel the cold, warmth, soft and loft,

Yet fierce, violent and uncontrolled.

 

So distance, distance has never been this clear before,

now I withdraw from my learned behaviours more.

I don’t search, doubt or engrave my identity,

I live free, more and unobstinate to the maturity.

 

Distance has never been this vulnerable yet comforting before…

Now I withdraw from my fears, insecurity, and ordeals just to be a little more, just to be a little more.

 

 

 

Do Pal..mil leti hun

Dhalte din mein, aur badhti shaam mein,

roz thoda chalti hun, do pal.. khud se mil leti hun.

Bhari bheed mein, aur goonjti ekaant mein,

roz thoda samajhti hun, do pal.. khud se mil leti hun.

Kahaaniyon mein, aur logon ke shabdon mein,

roz ek bahaana dhundti hun, do pal.. khud se mil leti hun.

Sapno mein, aur sabki sachhaiyon mein,

roz bhraman karti hun, do pal.. khud se mil leti hun.

Subah ki namaaz mein, aur baba ki aawaaz mein,

roz aman karti hun, do pal.. khud se mil leti hun.

READ! If you feel vulnerable..

Do not run, deal with the fears you have. Be with the self no one has met. Let the vulnerability be at peak. Loose your self in to the wilderness of reality. Allow the pain residing in you flow. But, do keep a watch to not stop in between. Shake your head if its full of doubts, let those doubts fall off and disappear.

And to seek the source of the solutions to your problems, stand up and walk closer to a mirror nearby.

Yes, that is where you are going to find your answers. That is the one person you can trust on and the one to shower you with love and care.

Remember that Self is often a camouflage. But when you remove the mask of disguise, self turns up being the remedy you were seeking for in the world outside.

Accept your self. Love your self. Be your self. 

Roobaru

Baadalon se ghir kar chhup rhe the hum,
Na jaane kiss se muh mod rhe the hum,
Jo nazar aaya hi nhi usse khoj rhe the hum, 
Achanak humne mehsus kia ki ankhein muund kr baethe the hum,
Dekha toh paaya baadal baeth kar ho gye the thum,
Khud ko khud ke saamne roobaru kar rhe the hum, roobaru kar rhe the hum…

KITAAB

Ek dukaan, dukaan kitaab ki.

Kitaabein kayi, kuch kahaaniyon ki.

Kahaaniyan ankhahee, kisi ke khwaab ki.

Ek khwaab, yaad kisi ki.

Kisi ki chaahat, ladaai kisi ki.

Aazaadi kisi ki, maut kisi ki.

Shanti kisi ki, sachayi kisi ki.

Ek dukaan, dukaan kitaab ki.

Kshetr ek, Lekhak kayi.

Syaahee ek, pal the kayi.

Lafz unke, aawaaz thi meri.

Anubhav unka, pariksha thi meri.

Chaai saath mein, kuch biscuit bhi.

Raatein kayi, par saath nhi.

Vichaar kayi, dhaarna kayi.

Ek kitaab, kitaab uss dukaan ki…

 

 

 

 

CHAAHAT

 

Jab jaan-naa chaha,

tab haalaat nhi the.

 

Jab maan-na chaaha,

tab jazbaat nhi the.

 

Jab chaaha ki lafzon mein krein kuch banyaa

tab, sach kehti hun, shabd hi nhi the.

 

Jab dhuud-na chaaha,

tab jawaab kayi the.

 

Jab apnana chaaha,

tab sawaal kayi thi.

 

Jab chaaha ki aankhein mund kar sun lun dil ki baat

tab, sach kehti hun, dil mein koi ehsaas hi nhi the.

 

Jab samajhna chaaha,

tab pehlu kayi the.

 

Jab smajhaana chaaha,

tab tum hi nhi the.

 

Jab chaaha ki khud mein khud se hi mil lun

tab, sach kehti hun, Allah bhi yhin the aur Ishwar bhi yhin the….

 

Jab milin unse,

tab puchha maine,

 

jaana khn tha,

aur khn hain chal diye.

 

Jab suna unhone meri chaahat ko

tab vo bole, main sach kehta hun, aana tha yhin pe…..tumhe, aana tha yhin pe.